Pure Bravery

I'm pretty sure that I'm not brave at all.

Regardless of the situation I'm in, I just don't have the ability to be brave and free.

Not until last year I had no self-esteem and I just couldn't brave myself up to the person I was meant to be.

From the grades of 5th-7th grade, I was perhaps the weakest link to any social event possible. Nobody wanted me around, nobody wanted to be my friend, and it was awful. I was forced to defend myself in a world full of assholes. I couldn't handle being weak and not brave. Middle school was especially the worst considering that everyone had become popular and I was that awkward kid who was too cool for the weird kids but too weird for the cool kids. I really never found a "group" that I could permanently stay in.

In 8th grade, I found out that there really was nobody to impress at school, so who was I fooling? I met a nice guy who helped level me out to who I really was and was actually a lot like me humor wise. He was the only person that helped me become brave. He made me realize what pure bravery felt like, and it was liberating.

With pure bravery comes the fact that you have no more shame to hide and that you're completely aware of the world around you, and you can handle that stuff well. I have no longer hid away from others or became ashamed of myself because I wasn't as skinny as the others or as pretty as the others. I've embraced my awkwardness, weirdness, whatever is wrong with me. People have made fun of me, left me behind, or pretended I was never a part of their lives, but that's what has made me a stronger person.

I feel like the things that should've wrecked me, have instead brought me up.

Maybe that's just me.

But I know damn well that people should be strong during situations where you get brought down. You're fierce and you should embrace it.

-Emilee

TIPS TO BRAVERY (BY: ME)

1. Never give up. Never back down. Always fight. 
2. Find people that actually make you happy and not force you to fake your friendship.
3. Never dress to impress. Ever.
4. You have your own style. Wear what makes you feel fierce.
5. Do what makes you happy!
6. Embrace the personality that best suits you and not what other people want you to be.
7. Turn up! Be social.
8. Never back out of a good time. If you're hanging out with friends, just have fun. It's worth it! But not too much fun...

Those are my tips to bravery. These have helped me over the years and it might or might not work for you depending on how you are.

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Things I Don't Understand

I'm not particularly too fond over certain things, and those things are the things that I simply don't understand.

1. Trying Out for Sports 

I don't understand why schools make you tryout to be in a sport. People tryout to be in a sport because they want to know how to play that sport, not being criticized by coaches over their inability to participate correctly. I've watched one of my best friends get rejected by the school baseball team just because they said his foot wasn't in the correct position while batting. Who's even watching? When you're playing the game, your foot placement is the last thing you worry about. I've just never understood that.

2. Homophobes

I don't understand why homophobes exist. Why are you afraid of another human being exactly like you? Just because they have a different preference in people doesn't give you the right to hate on them. That's like hating someone because they don't like the same food as you. Let's put this in perspective: you, as a male or female, don't like it when the member of the same sex starts flirting with you. But then again, a person of the opposite sex might not appreciate it when you flirt with them either. So just get that through your skull. How does it feel now? Thinking about what I just said?

3. Society

I don't understand society in general. I don't understand the fact that they tell you to be yourself, but make fun of you when you do. I don't understand that. I have really nothing else to say about that.

In the end, I have an issue with a lot of things, but those three things kind of sum up how I feel towards life and what I don't understand about life. It's pretty sad to be honest, but it all comes back to the fact that we're all pretty stupid and can't take in the truth.

-Emilee

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Being Strong (As Taught By My HS Football Team)

Although losing isn't a formal concept at my high school, it happened and this loss helped me realize how to cope with the loss of something, as well as being strong and coming up from a situation like it.

The football players at my school handle losses a lot levelheaded than expected, and that's a pretty respectable trait coming from 106 immature high schoolers who can make fun of or laugh at anything in the world.

After losing one of my best friends to the pressures of high school, I realized that I was being indirectly taught a lesson about life. In football, losing a game is pretty bad and it's upsetting to realize that the one thing you love was taken away from you. That's how it is in the real world as well. I lost an amazing friend to people who could care less about him. You have to take that into consideration. When you lose a best friend, it's not a good feeling. It's not fun. It's not cool. It's heartbreaking.

Although some people in other countries might not understand my logic, just compare it to a big soccer game or a sport that you love to play. Losing isn't perhaps the best thing to happen to you is it? Wouldn't you rather have something to cherish instead of something to cry over?

I just want every person in the world to go and come back 20x stronger than they should. That would be amazing. Just keep ballin, keep being cool, just go and win.

Go and carpe diem everything.

-Emilee

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The Truth About Society

In my honest opinion, society is full of hypocritical people who seem to expect the world to go along with their ideas of perfection. Their ideas of perfection seem to break away from the actual person stating those ideas. Society is a personified version of hell. Society is a thing that seems to tell people to be themselves, but instead decides to judge people for doing so. It isn’t the hypocrisy that makes me want to escape from this idea of life, but it’s the people behind it that want the world to be exactly the way they want it. I, myself, am a hypocrite, and I will tell you straight forward. But watching others tell their peers to be perfect is something that angers me, from the bottom of my heart to the very top.

No one is perfect. But that statement fails to get through the minds of society and stay in there permanently. It’s something of a joke to them. It’s shallow, hollow, and floats around, evoking thoughts throughout the minds of the world. It’s something that just won’t ever occur to them. Society is the type of person that you would hate if it were real. It’s the type of thing that comes around, destroys people, and leaves, as if nothing were to affect that person. Perfection is boring. If the entire world were perfect, there would be nothing to change. There would be no life-changing ideas to affect the course of history. Society expects the world to be perfect, even when they aren’t.

Society annoys me. The people who make up this BS is the reason why I'm pretty misanthropic. I'm sick and tired of hearing people get called ugly, stupid, or just any word that degrades another person in the world. I'm sick and tired of knowing that people commit suicide just because of one thing that society placed upon them: the idea of the fact that you're not beautiful because you don't fit in with everyone else. I'm sick and tired of looking in the mirror each day and having to believe that I'm not perfect to anyone.

Guys think that girls call themselves ugly just to get attention and sympathy from everyone else. That's not true at all. We look down on ourselves because we're trying so hard to be something that we aren't. We start believing what others say about us before we look at ourselves and believe that we are really beautiful, regardless of eye color, skin color, hair color, imperfections, beliefs, whatever. Society has turned everyone into try hards who are trying so hard to impress someone who really wouldn't take half a second to consider your feelings.

In the end, maybe that's just my personal opinion. Or maybe other people in the world share my feelings. But to sum up the moral of the entire blog, I have one sentence to say: Screw what society says, you're amazing.

-Emilee

Change Happens

Sometimes, I hate to accept change.

Scratch that. Make that all the time.

Change is something that I hate to give in to. It's a miserable feeling having to realize that you have to lose every single great memory of your life to something else newer and more extravagant. I realized all of this while in a conversation with Ashley from AppleCare. After she told me that I'd possibly have to wipe out my entire phone just to make way for a new update, it finally hit me that I'd be erasing all of the good times from that, too.

It hit me that one day, when I graduate high school, I have to finally give way to a whole new world of change, something that I really don't want to do.

For example, today was the 6th anniversary of my grandfather's passing, and it made me realize that change had forced that unbearable statement onto me.

Or the end of the school year last year, when one of my best guy friends had told me he'd miss me, and then completely forgot about me over the entire summer.

Change had forced my life to go from something really sunny and beautiful into something that took way too much time to ponder about. It's the idea of having to lose everything you've ever loved into something newer, better, and more fabulous. I don't like it, regardless of the consequences.

You might like change, but I don't.

Change has affected me in so many ways that I'm not particularly too sure if it has left a positive or negative impact on my life.

Finally, it's just sad to see things go because of this concept called change.

-Emilee

The Awesome People in My Life

There's a lot of awesome people in my life other than my family.

Yeah, I'm gonna tell you about them, because without them, my life would be absolutely disinteresting and full of boring. I'd be an even bigger misanthrope if it weren't for these kids.

1. My 8th Grade Math Class

This group of teenagers might perhaps be the greatest class setting that I have ever been placed with. There was a perfect mix of idiots and geniuses in that class, making it the most interesting thing in the world since what? The Royal Wedding? Government shutdown? I have no clue. But I really and truly miss every single person in that class.

2. Jack and Finn Harries

Two people haven't changed my life more than the Harries twins. They've brought me a bunch of new friends on Twitter and in real life, just by tweeting and sharing a mutual obsession with them. Plus, they're very charitable and beautiful people, so it's hard not to love them.

3. Some Fictional Characters in Books (Because I don't like actual people, and fictional people are the closest to awesome people that I know.)

Erm, it's pretty weird having to explain why you like fictional characters, but like any other book lover kid, you'll understand where I come from. I have a fond obsession with Jason Grace from The Heroes of Olympus series by Rick Riordan. Just to clear things up, it's because of one simple quote that he said that inspired me a lot.

"Maybe people with special gifts show up when bad things are happening because that's when they're needed most." -Jason Grace

4. Musicians

I just freaking love music. Especially those non-mainstream artists that have insane music. I'm obsessed with Bondax, Snakehips, Bonobo, Rudimental, Madeon, BANKS, Goldroom, and more. But right now, those are the main artists whose music is what I've been listening to for this year.

The video above is Giving It All by Bondax. It's an insane song, and maybe it'll get you hooked on the rest of Bondax's music.

Anyways, that's pretty much my main summary of the awesome people in my life!

If you have any awesome people that you'd love to share, just comment or make a reply blog to this post and I'll check them out! :)

-Emilee

Homecoming Week

Hey! What up.

This week is homecoming week at school, which has been extremely fun!

Besides the fact that we only had three days to celebrate homecoming, it's been really fun to see everyone let loose and wear costumes that they usually wouldn't even be caught dead wearing. It's actually really freaking hilarious depending on who wears what. (One kid wore a Miley Cyrus costume and had a wrecking ball and everything.)

Down in the South, it's pretty common to understand that we have a football game during homecoming week. So that's what tomorrow's for. We get to anticipate game day which is probably the greatest day in any Southern high school's week. Plus, my high school is undefeated right now and is #1 in the state and that's just the best thing in the world to me, considering we lost a few games last season.

In the end, it's been a pretty hectic week, taking the PSAT, dressing up, and just having to catch up and cover up for things...

So, that's how my day's been, and thanks for reading it!

Haha

-Emilee 

Some Cool (Weird) Stuff to Know About Me

Hi there lovely people!

So earlier I just did a random little post about how it was my first time blogging. Well nothing's changed, so here I am, writing out of boredom.

First off, my name's Emilee. I'm from the US and I love vlogging, blogging, taking pictures, eating, and watching YouTube videos. I'm pretty good with technology other than the fact that I'm awful at editing things and doing Photoshop.

Second off, I love music. It's pretty fun listening to a bunch of artists that not a lot of people are familiar with. I absolutely freaking love Bondax, Snakehips, Madeon, Goldroom, Rudimental, BANKS, Bonobo, and so on. I love the artists that aren't mainstream. So if you ever get bored or something, feel free to check out those artists on Soundcloud or YouTube. (They're absolutely amazing.)

Third off, I have an obsession with British things...I'm not entirely sure why, but I've grown up loving British people. So there's really no coincidence when I say that I'm a big fan of Jack and Finn Harries, Zoella, Marcus Butler, Alfie Deyes, Caspar Lee, and yeaaa....there's a lot. But I love the culture, people, life, and just everything about it.

Fourth, I love to read! It's not a bad thing, but it's just not common anymore among people my age. So that's probably why I think it's unique. I also love Doctor Who and am really excited to see Tennant and Matt together again! Haha, I sounded really nerdy right then...I apologize.

Finally, I guess I'm a chill person. It really depends who I'm around. Some people, I like to have fun around, but others, I love to just relax.

Anyways, I hope you enjoyed reading this bit of information on me and the stuff I like.

-Emilee 

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First Blog!

Hi there lovely people!

I'm really new to the concept and idea of blogging, because I'm so used to tweeting about my life. But I guess everyday's a new day for change.

I'm not the type to take up an entire page of blogging about random things, so for my first blog, I'll be really short and simple. But right now, it's pretty fun.

I'll be blogging later, so see you soon! :)

-Emilee